Tuesday, December 27, 2005
we hav always ask ourselves hav we done this righthav we done dat...
y are all this worries bothering us when we onli hav that short yrs to live in this earth?
compare over lives and the history of this planet caLL ''earth''
our timeline is so short
the worries that bother...everi pessimistic thought u hav
isnt it wasting ur time dwelling on this things....
humans sld reflect upon themselves
seriously we sld pursue our dreams
enjoy wat we hav...most imptly of all cherish wat we hav and those ard us
once we lost it is gone...they are non-renewable
i lost alot of things...how abt u
i regretted
burt now my life...i noe i hav lived to the fullest
- humans?!?
by KonGzl AkA DeWel @ 3:26 AM
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
these few days veri sian lehs nth much de....i wanna study lehs burt i jux cnt concentrateshall try harder
hmmm missing alot plp le
hha
nvm goin to see them soon veri soon
muahhaha
and also looking forward to thursday
AbandonEd BloG
- erm....
by KonGzl AkA DeWel @ 1:43 AM
Friday, December 09, 2005
"when u complete outward bounder course, u hav jux embark on an outward bound journey"oki i am jux bak frm the outward bound course, hmmm
there alot to sae abt and also leant frm it
i was glad i was there
mani events has taken place
the first day was nth much,as usual the admin stuff
the most fantastic one was the tower of power, high element
i look at the structure,i was like god damn it it so darn tall lah...
there was this rock climbing then moving towards this tyyres then climb a rope ladder
darn scary i was trembling...luckily hav yi liang call me hug on the tyres or nort i would nort hav complete the course...there was kayaking
burt it wasnt veri fun
awhile nia...haish...hmmm then gort see girls also lah
then there was hiking ehs...our land expedition
i was dying lah...alamak that one gone case man
then we move up to this area which is our new camp site
darn hot pitch tnet pitch untill wanna die man...was chao ta
then we proceeed to make a raft...veri veri fun!!!
darn shiok...the feeling was .... cnt be describe lors
though we din manage to lunch it burt it was gd enuff...deep down our heart we noe it is a success..at least we had a dip in the quaryy...
ABC DUNK!!!
then in the night was even better...cooking rox then we also had qa heart felt chat wif our instrctor angela...no sld be highlight....haha
was realli nice
then we hav UBIN 933!!!haha
haha it rain that night burt it was fun
the darn tents will leak !!!
and ya the stars was veri veri nice!!!! i like!!!
then next day trek again
wah was tiring...then did team dynamics
quit fun oso...infact nth was borin except hikeS!!!
i dun like it!!!
then went to tidy up the store
also hor we play flying fox
i was darn scared lah....my god...cheryl gort injured and can eat coook hse!!! wth
sobs nvm
then go pitch tent
last day bought things clear store '
GO HOME!!!
learn alot...realli start to appreciates thing lor...everithing...family...frens
most imptly look on their better side!!!
-
by KonGzl AkA DeWel @ 4:37 AM
Saturday, December 03, 2005
sumhow manage to catch 5 hrs of slp larh...burt still to me is okie
tml is obs i scared i die there
sumhow sumwae i tok to sumone untill 5
i cnt believe it
am i dreamin?
haha no lehs
nvm so sian
everione dunno go where
- erm...veri tireD!!!
by KonGzl AkA DeWel @ 9:39 PM
Thursday, December 01, 2005
is he getting obsessed?is he deep into it?
is he memerize by her beauty?
dunno
or maybe he is
he cant admit it
burt y
he dunno...
was it bcux he is nort ready
he still luv the other girl
y cnt he jux let go of the past
y cnt he luv other
y is he torturing himself
he has no idea y
burt when he saw this girl
he like her
started toking to her
and realize she like another guy
he is totally brokenhearted
burt he has nort gave up
cux he noes the guy is bad
a veri bad guy
burt he cnt change her
he cnt
he is feeling desperate
he has lost it
Ψ٭٭ ҜřДvΞ ٭٭Ψ
- get hold of ur self b4 u lose it
by KonGzl AkA DeWel @ 11:02 PM
fate is in contrl of us?
i dun think so
i believe in my self
there was time when i lost faith
burt i gain it bak
there were time where i killed without flinching
burt now emotions flood me all the time
it hunts me
it tortured me
i noe there is karma
i will get it one day
burt now...wat do i do
i dunno
i am lost
lost in the deep ocean
may i noe y
provide me an answer plz
i luv u
burt u nv felt it
in fact u nv noe it
u jux think i am crap
it hurts me
it breaks me
in fact u made me feel veri veri bad
that y...i am wrieting this down
or nort i wun
or in fact i wld nv write this down
i wld keep in my heart
and in the end i jux wan u to noe
i will be there fer u
i will hold ur hands and walk down this boulevard...
i will support u...
i will shower u the luv...
burt i noe i would nv had the chance
bcux ur heart is alr sumone else
i can snatch it bak
cux...cux...i lost hope
i dun derserve to live animore
cux i hav lost hope in this world
- fate and destiny....
by KonGzl AkA DeWel @ 8:16 PM
life has ups and down
when u are up plp favour u
they adore u
they luv u
they stick to u
why?
when u are down plp does not giv a damn abt u
they hate u
they loathe u
they shun u
why?
is this humanity
is this?
i dun find the meaning in the whole game animore
maybe bcux i am nort in control of it
burt when i am
and when i am
i take wat i deserve
i take revenge
i that away the sufferings u hav
burt when will dat happen
i dunno
maybe i die trying
burt i promise u
i wun die trying
i will get wat i wan
u will by down like me
writing this in ur blog by the time
and u sld regret wat u hav done to me
once a flesh, bcame souless
he lost his feelins
he is numb
- ki hor gao gan
by KonGzl AkA DeWel @ 3:12 AM
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
i look out of the framed size windowthe red sky is majestic
that moment i felt warmth in my heart
the beauty of nature
everithing seems in place and so perfect
the rang broke the serenity
i saw the sky shatters into a thousand pieces
like shimmering diamonds they fall to ground
that split second i feel the world has no sympathy no compassion neither it has love
the laughters of the children stop instantly
cries frm the babies were heard throughout the world
god's tear rush down frm the sky
onli the purest could hear the impending disaster
i ran...i ran away frm it
tinking it wld help
burt is there to hunt me
it is a regret...
- this waorld has no love...has no sympathy...has no compassion...it is cold n hard
by KonGzl AkA DeWel @ 4:44 AM
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
i had nv felt like thisi had nv felt this coldness and emptiness b4
i had never...never
i saw the imperfection of the humanity
i saw cruel is this society
i saw of it todae...at this veri moment
all that i stand fer
all that i believe in
is all...is all...LosT
was it my fault?
was it my style?
was it baised?
wat was the reason?
wat is the point?
wat is the real way?
can this society be trusted?
can teachers be trusted?
can frens be trusted?
i cannnot animore...
can i trust again?
can i commit again?
can i luv again?
i cannot animore
time heals?
does it?
it is a myth?
i never felt my wounded body heal...
can anione sacriface?
can anione feel ur pain?
can anione kill his luv ones to eased his agony?
i saw it...it does not exist
can i let go?
can i find back the passion?
can i commit?
as i think of this i felt lie gibing up on the world
my pain
my agony
my feelings
deepened at every instant
how i wish...
soul keeper finds me
satan is there fer me
my fallen angel is beside me
can u...
feel wat i feel
can u...
THIS AINT LIFE ANIMORE
THIS AINT PLEASURE
THIS IS A WAR
A WAR BETWEEN HYPOCRICY AND TRUTHFULNESS
A WAR OF MY OWN VALUES
I DUN WAN TO LOST
I DUN WAN TO LOST TO THIS WORLD
I WAN TO FIGHT MY WAY OUT
ONE DAY...ONE DAY
HUMAN WILL REALISE THEIR SELFISNESS
THEY WILL FEEL MY PAIN
AND I HOPE THESE PAIN LET THEM LEARN SMTH
AND REPENT B4 THEY DIG THIER OWN GRAVE
- my world...hsadawdkbjsafbvkjxczlkjcsflbhdas
by KonGzl AkA DeWel @ 4:10 AM